The Military Life...

Jesse has been in the military for just over 11 years and his contract is up next summer. He has wanted to get out for a long time now but its a hard decision. The reasons being are next summer he will have 12 years in and he is 8 years from retirement and he will only be 37 Years old! Also all the benefits that come with being in the Marines. But there is always a down side to being in the Marines. When he was on recruiting duty we never saw him because they worked extremely long hours and now that he is back to his regular job we are having to deal with deployments again=(.When we lived in Hawaii he was never there. He was always on some kind of deployment. Whether it was 2 weeks , 1 month or 6 months long he was never around. So now that we are at that point thinking re-enlisting will be the best for our family I am kinda freaking out. He will have a couple mini deployments before next summer when they leave for the middle east. I am not looking forward to the extra emotions and meltdowns from myself, my kids and my husband. Also all the changes you have to make at home when they are gone and then the changes you have to make when they get back from the deployments.It is so hard on the family... I think it will be extra hard on Keyshon because he never had to deal with Daddy being gone for a long time. Also I know it will be hard on my emotional boy Kymani. Jesse was only around for maybe 4 months of Kymani's first year of life and it was about the same for every year until he was 5. It will be interesting how both of my kids will do cause I know that I am never ready for these deployments. No matter how strong I think I am I always end up having some kind of meltdown. I guess that is what you get for being in the Military.What can you do... right??? Oh well...

So Nervous!!

Okay I am totally nervous...I have been applying for jobs for the night shift and weekends. I feel like things have been going pretty crappy because the last time I worked was in high school!!But todayI got a call from JCPENNY for an interview tomarrow!! So I am totally freakin because I suck at interviews. I hate all of those stupid questions they ask...I wish I could just say. ...I work hard..I am Friendly and I have had some experience.So just friking hire me! Anyways I wish it were that easy...Please wish me luck..

Lego Land Fun!!

We decided to get season passes to Lego Land and we sure have been putting them to use.

Doing Things Backwards...

Okay ....I need to vent about how I have always done thing backwards in life. Don't get me wrong I love my life and my wonderful kids and husband but some of my decision's in life have made things more difficult. I got married at 18...Had my first son at the age of 19 and my second son at 23. I haven't been to school yet because I have been busy being a stay at home MOM/ Military Wife. Which are very demanding... and I know I am doing the right thing by being at home but sometimes I want to be really selfish because I skipped that part of my life. I want to go back to school get a job and all of that. So, recently I have been looking at schools on the web trying to figure out what to do. ( Don't I sound like a High School student ) But I keep going back to the same thing I wanted to do after High School which is in the Nutrition Field. So I am working on getting started on that as we speak. As for the job part...I think I am going to have to hold off because of my two very important boys that need me at home. So, here I go back to school at the age of 25... I am doing it all backwards!